I do not know what has happened?

[capthankhan]

I took GMAT i December 2008 and did not do well on that test-day. My problem is not that I did not get my desired score on the test day, I was fully prepared to retake if I did not well, my problem starts when I wanted to take up again my preparation for the second time.
MY MOTIVATION IS NOT THERE THOUGH I REALLY WANT TO STUDY HARD FOR THE SECOND TIME.
From the January, I have benn thinking what I should do. I don't know if this is the right place to write about such thing but I donot know about other places either. Yes I tried many times to sit and study with same desire to study as I had studied before the test. My mind wants to study but something has just died in me. By the way, It is not the score that made me like this and I know I can do better next time. So people if you know any method(s), strategy(ies) that will help have my motivation back, I will love to hear from you.
Thank you for giving a sincere reading to my post.

[jen.sagan]

I just took the test on April 18th and am feeling like I will be the same when I try to prepare again.

[JonathanSchneider]

Great posts here, and I feel for you. Picking yourself up after a defeat is hard. But is IS doable. Draw strength from the many who have done it before. Draw strength from examples of others in your life who have succeeded at something difficult after an initial failure. Draw inspiration from whatever source you can.

You may also want to give yourself a little break before going back into full study-mode. A week or two off might be good for you. IF you just can't spare that much time, at least give it a few days. Tell yourself: "I won't study for the next few days, but after that I will get back into it, and I will find the strength again."

I understand your heartache. You want to find a way to change your mantra/internal voice. Get yourself to a place where you can say: "You know what. It didn't work out the way I wanted the first time. But that's okay. I'm not alone in this. Many people have felt exactly as I do now, and I can pick myself up and find a way to truly succeed." Then get back at it!

Wishing you the best!